Saturday, August 7, 2010

August 8, 2010

You were supposed to be celebrating your 56th birthday today.
I miss you so much Papa, i just want you back in my life now! It still has not been easy this past 9 years. I've been through a lot, I've conquered a lot of battles and still it's all because you were there for me. I always believed that you are with me wherever i go. You are such a great man, and He took you away from me. :(

Though i believe that everything happens for a reason.

I know that you can see that i'm a big girl now. I hope your proud of your only little girl. I've accomplished a lot and you are my inspiration all through out this years.

Papa, Happy birthday! thank you for all the things you have done for me! :)

I miss you so much Papa!

Love Lots,
Baby Daizylie :)

August 8, 2010

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I haven't written here for awhile. Just busy gathering my thoughts and trying to put it together into one piece.

So let me start with what's happening in my life now. I just turned 22 last month :) and had a fun celebration with some good friends (but i still hoped i celebrated it in Cebu). Luckily, i'm still in the same job for the past almost 3 years now. No progress yet i can say, well probably because i'm still wishing i'd get a job abroad. Something than can help me EARN instead of SPENDING my money. Honestly, i don't feel fulfilled. I want a house on my own, a car, and a business. How can i get those? i don't know! :(


Yesterday i suddenly became very emotional just because i didn't get to buy a banana because he was tired to pick me up at the Jeepney station somewhere. Well, it wasn't really just about the banana, my heartaches all came in together and i broke down. For some reason, i pitied myself. I felt like I've been making other people happy and giving them all they want to the point that they have forgotten to make me happy too. I am strong woman, but please don't forget that I am human, I have feelings too. I am not asking anything in return I just want to feel important to you. I want to see you working hard, giving out the best that you can for me. Even if you have this flaws, it would all sum up to the fact that no matter what: you are you and there is nothing I can do about it, though I know I've tried to change you in different ways. I still and would continue to love you.


So, it's official. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to us. Just 12 months ago the only thing we planned was to watch a movie (as FRIENDS) but suprisingly the day ended with us falling in love with each other. I never regret any decision i made this same day last year. I only wish that we still continue to grow in love and trust each other. I love you and it feels so amazing to be loved by you too. ♥